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Oct. 28th, 2019 04:39 pmTo do, in no particular prescribed order.
- Headworld (high fantasy) post, meander out some thoughts on that worldbuilding particularly in re: orcs, civet elves, vulture people
- The OCs who haven't made it to Eorzea
- Wordvomit about why doing the thing is hard when you're piss-terrified of censure from peers
- A leisurely exploration of some potentially offputting things I like to explore in fiction, in re: being a villainfucker and a monsterfucker in particular
- Inchoate anger about the Fujoshi Discourse and how buying into it is literally the most self-destructive thing you can do if you're a queer trans man
- Someday I'll talk about how cryptoterfism did in fact nearly kill me
- I think I have a lot of unprocessed anger about what twitter/tumblr fandom is now and about the nebulous subculture that is "antishipping" and related stances, and maybe I can actually talk about it in here instead of quietly demurring on twitter for the sake of acquaintances that follow me for FFXIV
- Gushing about From Software's library of works
- Gushing about Jeff Vandermeer's novels
- It's Actually Pretty Hard To Write About Trans Experiences In A Way That Translates To Genres and Narratives I Enjoy, In A Way That I Feel Comfortable With And Doesn't Feel Marketed To Woke Twee Aesthetics
- Being eternally thankful that Legend of Korra's awful fandom taught me very early on that western cartoon fandoms would only get worse, and I was fucking right (Motorcity fandom, you are exempt from this)
- The Rosetta Stone of my sentimentality about the awful early lives of Varis and Zenos Galvus and my sentimentality about Rusty Venture in re: Spanakopita
- I know I literally said western cartoon fandoms are the worst but I'm deeply thankful that the toxic waste aura of problematic early seasons has effectively prevented The Venture Brothers from having that kind of fandom, so I can unironically be sentimental about it while having several different embarrassing crushes on pointy middle-aged men with awful personalities, eternal gratitude to my partner for taking me on the wild ride of watching six entire seasons over the course of about a month last year
- We Have To Talk About Shin Sekai Yori, I'm Sorry
- Turns out I was a furry the whole time, but it's too late for me to be a part of furry culture, the vegans will chase me out
- Social commandments (lol) for engaging with the powers of fiction, to prevent being ensorcelled by trauma bonding your identity to fictional characters in an unhealthy way or becoming the pawn of something that just wants your money (that thing is Disney)- aka "becoming fictionkin is maladaptive at best"
- The rise and fall of the time when I tried to become a lore authority on FFXIV and got elbowed out by someone from the considerably more grognardy forums that I quit, but it's okay because now I have a moderately successful google document about botany
- My late-20s, late-blooming, very gay awakening to my legitimate love for vampire fiction, and the vampire movies my partner and I can and will watch year-round
- What a shame it was that WTNV got lost in the weeds at some point during the Strexcorp narrative and completely lost its charm of being a public radio program in the most paranormal town imaginable because it tried to be too narrative-driven and have that narrative be about.... capitalism? bad?
